
You want to know what I’ve been wearing lately? My pajamas. I’ve been wearing them a lot.
Take today for example. I woke at 8 and promptly went back to bed at 1 – and slept until 4. I’ve turned down an adjunct teaching position in legal writing. I’ve demurred on a chance to contribute to a major spring style issue. I’m standing on the precipice of 2011 in a pair of flannel sleep pants and an oversized robe – like some Michael Keaton caricature from “Mr. Mom.” If I could grow a beard, I’m certain it would be hitting my navel.
Exactly one year ago, I proclaimed, much as George Castanza did in that memorable Seinfeld episode, that this would be the “year of Sarah.” I was going to make changes. I was going to grab life by the throat and start living it. Little did I think I’d be spending the first few days of December of that same year in a hospital bed with mastoiditis, shingles and meningitis. One spinal tap, 20 vials of blood and a lymph node biopsy later, every one agrees there is something wrong – but can’t quite figure out what.
I’ve flipped lovingly through the pages of my December Vogue and angsted over end-of-year sales online, thinking it might be a good idea to shower before doffing something pretty.
My oldest son was diagnosed with autism this year. My youngest, with a language disorder. I have a stack of neck-high rejection letters, evidencing fiction that wasn’t palatable enough for any number of literary journals nation-wide.
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21
Let me be clear, however - this year has not been devoid of its wonders. I’ve seen Miami, Boston and Las Vegas for the first time. Matt was promoted. I saw an entire riding show season through and placed 4th in my division overall. And I wrote – more than I ever have.
So this post is an homage to change, of sorts. And to the value of dedicated years – years in which our intentions are strong, in which we face unafraid the plans that we’ve made – because we know Who’s got our back.
My dressing hasn’t been terribly creatively lately. But that will change. I just bought a killer pair of riding boots that I’m planning on wearing over my shredded Current Elliott skinny jeans with a D&G dogtag necklace.
All in good time. All, after I’m out of my Pj’s.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, my friends. Thank you for your support and your love.
Here’s to a bolder, brighter 2011. May it be your year, too.